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Saying goodbye was the hardest thing I swear, I can't wait to see him again I was missing him already while he was still there just because I knew he would be gone in a short while. This week has been so so amazing. Absolutely perfect. Him holding me while we watch movies together on the couch, taking walks together, we even played counter strike together in my room lol and heh other things. Yesterday we went to Hawk's Nest with my family it was so beautiful, his friend went also he's so hilarious probably one of the funniest people I know. It was so so so nice. I'll even have pictures soon! lol. When we came home we went to get his disposable camera developed and he even bought my dad a Father's Day card. =] My dad was like, "it's been really nice having you here you've really behaved yourself (pffft) you've definitely earned respect." and my mom hugged him even lol a couple hours later and he had to go it was so so so so hard..I couldn't get myself to go inside and we were both crying so much. He made me promise him that nothing would change after he had to go, and I did. And we promised each other to be strong and that we'll never leave one another. And I know it's hard but we can make it work, we've made it work for a year already afterall. I know it will be okay =] we were crying and hugging and kissing, and about the 4th time he's tried to walk away but couldn't let go of my hand he tells me I should go inside because he can't leave with me standing there like that, so I did but I was watching him through the window and he was walking backwards to his car and just sat in it looking at me and he started crying even more on the steering wheel then he opened up the door and came running back to me from across the street crying, and he hugged me tightly and promised me it would be okay. He's going to try to stay again sometime this summer if he can. I really hope he can..heh well that was a rather long entry lol I guess I'll shutup now, just felt the need to write it all out.
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I got to spend the day with AJ =] and I get to spend from today until Sunday with him too!! I'm so so happy. He's the most amazing guy in the whole world. Just seeing him smile at me gives me the most amazingly amazing feeling...god I love him so much. Even if I don't get to see him often at all, it's worth the wait, and I'd wait forever if I had to. My dad even likes him a whole lot! =P

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From infowars.com

Pentagon Video Is Giant Psy-Op
Intended to create circus of interest around 'no plane' theories, later debunk them

Grainy video stills showing what is claimed to be the nose cone of Flight 77 will only result in an increased circus of debate around the issue of what happened at the Pentagon in preparation for a future release of clear video footage that 'debunks' people who question the official version of 9/11.

For over four years we have remained neutral on the subject agreeing that unanswered questions need to be explored but warning against the Pentagon issue becoming the core focus of the 9/11 truth movement. The danger is clearly that the government will use its media mouthpieces in particular Fox News to hype this until it becomes the de facto keystone of alternative explanations behind 9/11. At the point when that crescendo reaches its peak crystal clear footage of Flight 77 hitting the Pentagon will be released, knocking down the straw man argument that the establishment itself erected. The government is steam valving this issue so as to garner as much interest as possible before blowing the entire matter out of the water. We know for a fact that the FBI seized the gas station camera footage and footage from hotels across the highway which would show the entire sequence of events and prove exactly what happened at the Pentagon. The fact that they have again chosen to release grainy and foggy images which only lead to more speculation tell us two things.

1) The government truly is frightened to death of releasing any images which accurately depict what happened at the Pentagon because it doesn't jive with the official version of 9/11.

2) Or the government knows that Flight 77 hit the Pentagon and has clear footage of the incident, but is deliberately releasing these speculative images in order to stoke the debate so it can later release the high quality video and use it to debunk the entire 9/11 truth movement.

What are your opinions on this?


I know, I never update...I don't like to update when there's nothing interesting to say though heh. I do have something I feel like I should write out though. WOW. =] Long distance relationships are really hard sometimes...I know he can't help it because of school and things like that..but I get so sad and I really want to be with him. When I see couples and stuff at school and other places..I can't help but feel jealous because I want to be able to be with him like that. It's not that I'd rather be with someone closer, not at all..he's the only guy I'll ever want to be with I swear on my life, I just wish we could be closer, you know? I couldn't live without him either and I know this. I couldn't even be remotely happy with anyone else. I love AJ more than anything, truly. I'd wait forever to be with him if that's what it would take. I know I just have to make the best of it until we can be together, but I still get like this sometimes heh. I know you probably didn't want to read all this hah but I haven't even updated in nearly 2 months, and I really wanted to get this off my chest =] Sorry guyssss
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I haven't updated in a few days or so, Friday was my birthday =] I'm 15 now...umm me and AJ's 6 month anniversary is in a week I can't believe it's already been half a year..he's so amazing. My mom got a biopsy and she finds out how bad her liver is on Monday, they've found a tumor in her liver though..Yeah well this was a boring entry, so I'll just leave it at that
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Well I guess I should update again, things are doing alright for the most part..I'd update more but I really don't have much of a life to be honest lol. I sit here where I am right now playing videogames and listening to music, and I really don't hang out with anyone anymore, I just talk to people at school when they want to talk to me. I'm getting better than I was last time I wrote..but my horse Pride is sick! He got into a poisonous plant and started losing weight really fast =[ I wish I had more to write about, but sadly, I don't. bye lol.

I love Aj <3